When My Father Faced An Emergency

I think love from complexity is divine Grace! And complexity from love is.. is that too a form of Grace? That allows us to appreciate life, love, complexity and grow ? I can't really think of a dangerous situation but there was a time when I was disillusioned with my work and was violent in my thinking about the setup and the supervisor and her supervisor. In a fit of rage and disappointment, I submitted my paper and was sure my supervisor would face the music from higher ups who had to accept the resignation. Meanwhile my supervisor seemd to have sensed that and she fell sick and had to be admitted for High BP. Though my team members said she was a drama queen and I need not worry, I thought as a fellow human I would do what was in my control and I withdrew my application without mentioning any reasons. My supervisor got better but because of my withdrawal her supervisor labelled me erratic, whimsical and I was denied promotion that year despite stellar performance. I was disappointed , also angry and helpless but I could connect to my compassion over a period of time. I could see his PoV and felt some warmth and respect despite a sense of mourning for the closed views he held . Being home helps me see the others needs beyond the tip, sometimes ( most times is apt ) I can't see beyond the knife and draw my daggers out but the frequency is now decreasing gradually but consistently. Again divine Grace that helps me stay home in compassion consciousness.