As Way Opens

This especially resonated: "when I allow myself the pause then I can move forward grounded in what I love and not what I fear." I've often had the tendency to leap into life following intuition, entering open doors without much pause. It's only been in the last 4 years, I've really allowed a longer pause to do as Carrie so beautifully expressed, pause. Last year I went on a personal pilgrimage to try to ascertain next chapter of my life. My work is 99% remote do I had the opportunity to travel and sit with myself in different locations including house & cat sitting in Anchor Point Alaska for 2 months last summer. This was somewhat remote. The view put the window was the Aleutian Mountains across a sliver of Kachemak Bay. Every day I sat for hours looking at the mountains, observing the visiting pair of Sandhill Cranes, watching the light change. Going for quiet walks on the gravel road. This pause helped me to truly slow down to introspect, to assess my life. To ask questions, what can my life look like now? It was also helpful grounding foundation as I stepped through a door to be live-in caregiver for my mom who has had decades long struggle with severe debilitating anxiety & cognitive impairment, now early stage dementia. Without the personal pilgrimage pause. I'm not sure I could do what I'm now living. It's still not easy. I learn hour by hour. With gratitude for this reflection and space.