I believe how we wrestle especially in live or die situations is who we really are, and they may bring out the best and the worst in us. A major wrestling with my heart occurred when I was 21. I was on a career path that was known and secure for me but no longer was right for me. To change was to go against what I had thought I wanted for a long time and go against mother's wishes and go against the expectations of some significant others, and it would be a step into a scary unknown. My heart was telling me to make the change, and my head and fear and wanting to please was telling me to stay put. I went through several weeks of agonizing gut wrenching anguish and wrestling within myself, and the life or death of my spirit was at stake. I followed my heart. I took a big leap and once I made the decision I quickly knew I made the right decision for me. I didn't grow a new heart -- I grew a new me, that is, a me that was more self and heart trusting and more clear and strong as to who I am.
On Dec 2, 2022 David Doane wrote :