A Map To Here

For me, constant failures of my plans or not even able to predict the next moment, is always like a reminder, that I ain't the one doing. The more I am connected to reality, the more I am in that State. Whenever I am upset about something, or when I am thinking a lot, I take it as a sign, that I have left being present in the moment. Life really becomes very beautiful when we begin seeing it as something we know nothing about. It has been my favorite experience.

God released me from “the mindset of needing to get somewhere other than where I am. Having an “I should” and “I’m not enough” personality, got me to a decade of mental illness. I learned, overtime, that my “ill thinking”was robbing me of life. I cannot be what I am not. I cannot do more than I am already doing. I can only do/be as He created me in this moment. If any thing or anyone pressures me to do/becoming something more, a red flag jump up boldly in my mind. Who helps me remember that the distance between me and 'being awake' is a mirage, you ask? God/Truth/Knowledge that I cannot win favor.