I yell when I feel myself disappearing under the belittling and dismissive rant of another person. I yell to reinflate my lungs, to remind myself I am alive and that I have the right to be alive. I had to shrink into a very tiny person as a child in order to keep myself physically safe in my parents' house. On rare occasions I can feel like that tiny, helpless child who is one lack of a breathe away from evaporating from this Earth. Yelling reminds my body to take up its space again, before I evaporate.
On Oct 7, 2021 Michelle wrote :