There are stories that I tell myself in order to sell myself to rent and buy what the self-conscious mind 'needs' to survive. Most of the time, I am renting, but several years ago I stopped buying what the unhealthy projecting mind was selling. Iwas given my first koan to work on, or do. What I realized in my first confirmed kensho (nondual-conscious mind) was a freedom or liberty to see reality, as it is. Unreality is what I tell myself in order to sell myself. Reality is when I drop the sales pitch and simply tuneinto what is happening below these collar bones, so as to move from my head to my body and subtle heart. Only with my wholeheartedness and embodiedfocused attention was I able to 'do' this first koan I encountered.It cracked me open. It actually 'did' me or 'did' my self-conscious mind in and I had no purchasing power left in my account to buy or even rent this unreality. So, I was emptied of all currency and left holding only what was there. Pure mind. Pure consciousness. Naked reality.
On May 6, 2020 Shuddhachittananda wrote :