Don't Go Back to Sleep

I get , that the choices are ours to make. I get that staying awake and being as you put, broken open, is the enlightened way to go. It brings transformation into a new and well earned world. It is the change you become and then give back to those still struggling. " Correct"? I'm tired tho... I need rest.... Alice fell down a deep deep rabbbit hole, and broke her back in the fall. The pain has been great! And the healing time has not quite finished. I'm not going to stand up and walk away with a unhealed injury. See? I need rest. I need peace. And, I will take it. after all, it too, is a choice. I will not walk away half healed. I will not start a new beginning wounded and not strong and healed. This is my choice! No one elces. I choose, to stay quiet, stay wize, and let myself have the last few moments to heal. I choose to end this earlier chaos of a life not confused, or wounded, but quietly rested in a self imposed peace. I choose to let myself heal correctly before I take on the flight of a phoenix. Ok? I'm wise enough to finally l know myself well enough to know I will never rise up and be effective at anything I try if I'm hiding a injury that should have hAd a tiny little bit more time to heal. I shall, wait... patiently and allow myself the time required to heal. Then,..... and only then... broke or wealthy, right or wrong, with or without anyone to stand beside me, will matter not. I will ride as that Phoenix. And I shall devour all that touch my flames or attempt to cage me. I shall overcome! Nighty nite