I will agree with what Jeff Foster says, “… that nothing happens to you, but everything happens for you - …” The hard part for me, though, is recovering from the horror and shock of life. Maybe I am being weaned from any reliance on my feelings and I am now to find faith in being powerless and even in hopelessness. It feels like I am to find the heart of faith in being emotionally paralysis, as I know the 110 volts of electrical shock is coming again and again. I am tired of the intense shock from life and now in my own body’s inability to function. Could it be possible to find the heart of faith at that point I am being shocked into awareness? Could this moment be faith of the awareness create stillness, and then the courage to accept the shock? I just feel my deepest shock is recovering from my disbelief and it is like I am recovering from the Supreme Being. It seems this awareness is a moment learning to accept my shock as for me and not to me, as Jeff says. A faith in what is painful and disturbing, and then for a self living in the moment of the shock, where faith becomes courage and for the courage to accept.
On Feb 18, 2014 Syd wrote :
I will agree with what Jeff Foster says, “… that nothing happens to you, but everything happens for you - …” The hard part for me, though, is recovering from the horror and shock of life. Maybe I am being weaned from any reliance on my feelings and I am now to find faith in being powerless and even in hopelessness. It feels like I am to find the heart of faith in being emotionally paralysis, as I know the 110 volts of electrical shock is coming again and again. I am tired of the intense shock from life and now in my own body’s inability to function. Could it be possible to find the heart of faith at that point I am being shocked into awareness? Could this moment be faith of the awareness create stillness, and then the courage to accept the shock? I just feel my deepest shock is recovering from my disbelief and it is like I am recovering from the Supreme Being. It seems this awareness is a moment learning to accept my shock as for me and not to me, as Jeff says. A faith in what is painful and disturbing, and then for a self living in the moment of the shock, where faith becomes courage and for the courage to accept.