Deep Inquiry: Not for the Faint of Heart

My body is falling into nothingness because my cells produce low energy for my muscles.   I can feel there is nothing true or valuable which I can believe.  This physical nothingness is like insecurity and powerlessness.  It feels rather perverse and dark.  In my inquiry my deepest fear is “Will you love me if I am nothing?”   

When I allow my faith to create an opening in my nothingness I notice a profound peace and stillness where everything is arising and disappearing.  I feel an underlying depth within this void and my fear is not sticking in my consciousness.  The stillness feels like a clarification of my boundaries around being nothing.  It is as if this stillness can see through the boundary and walk into this nothingness with transparency.  There is clarity and this immense intelligence of Essence that allows everything to pass through.  This inquiry into my void is allowing nothing stick in my conscious, especially my madman who imposes patterns on every circumstance.   
 
       
 

 As God loves me in my "feeling" of nothingness, I will love you in your feeling of "nothingness".  Does God want us to be void?  Not!  Does Satan want you to be void?  Absolutely.  From Whom do I muster up energy?  
You can bet I will not find it outside of God/His Word/Heaven.  We cannot step outside the circle of His Life.

Again, I Will Love You!  Why?  Because YOU are so WORTHY.

Thank you Amy for caring and having a good heart.  Just being you deeply and completely is a profound connection to my heart.  This helps me to experience my heart's desire and my value is no particular achievement. The experience is just the depths of my male heart and I feel hope.   This hope feels like a flow.   Wow, men are not cry and yet there is almost this opening.   My body is shacking, sweats and exhaustion so I will need to get more energy to finish this almost.  Hope truly is a place to begin!  

Sweet Heavenly Father, surround my friend.  Hug him. Squeeze him.  Love him because, right now, You are closest to him and know him best.  I can feel his pain, human that I am  . . . but YOU are God and can see/feel/do abundantly more for him.  Please, please, please bring strength to my friend in the form of Your Most Holy Gift of LOVE.  This is what I pray.  Amen.  
I trust in You.