When I was younger my eyes would never close my heart would never function and for what reason, nobody knows When I grew older my eyelids were falling shut my heart was nothing but I think it was there It's weird because I didn't seem to have feelings every salty whisper it wouldn't peel my self esteem even as the air grew crisper I never knew what this was all about why I felt like a vampire creeping in the daylight the smile that I wore from ear to ear it was never here It confused me when people asked what was wrong with me because that's the one question that I could never answer the confusion, it spread like cancer The cherry red tears there were enough to fill an ocean each sour bullet coated in emotion but emotion of what kind I grew up wondering who I was and what I was forcing myself into believing I used to tell my self if you trick yourself into thinking you're happy for long enoughYou'll be happy.
Just read Elizabeth, again. Jesus have and hold Elizabeth for me. I want to go to sleep knowing You are caring for her. All my love to you sister.
On Oct 29, 2013 Elizabeth wrote :
When I was younger
my eyes would never close
my heart would never function
and for what reason, nobody knows
When I grew older
my eyelids were falling
shut
my heart was nothing
but
I think it was there
It's weird because
I didn't seem to have feelings
every salty whisper
it wouldn't peel my self esteem
even as the air grew crisper
I never knew what this was all about
why I felt like a vampire
creeping in the daylight
the smile that I wore
from ear to ear
it was never here
It confused me when
people asked what was wrong with me
because that's the one question
that I could never answer
the confusion,
it spread like cancer
The cherry red tears
there were enough to fill an ocean
each sour bullet
coated in emotion
but
emotion of what kind
I grew up wondering
who I was and
what I was forcing myself into believing
I used to tell my self
if you trick yourself into thinking you're happy
for long enough
You'll be happy.