Using Attention in a New Way

 years back i went to a vipassana retreat in sri lanka, nilambe, a beautiful nature setting, very quiet. after 10 days i left the retreat to visit kandy. i walked down the hill 35 minutes in walking meditation to reach a bus to town. when the bus arrived it was crowded. i hardly could get into the bus. it was hot. i managed after hanging for a while outside the bus, getting more inside. i felt irritated about this condition. after sitting 10 days on my own meditation cushion in peace undisturbed. somebody stepped on my toes, anger arising. how could he do this. we were packed like sardines in a tin, sweating, bad smells. why don't they have more busses? then i got pushed over, poked in my ribs, ok this is enough i started loudly complaining and felt so sorry for myself. the 10 days of practise, peace,  happyness had turned sour quickly.
                      i got my lesson from life. after a cup of coffee and a sweet i felt a bit better, but i decided next time i will do it another way.
after 10 days again walking-meditation down the hill, but with the intention of taking EVERYTHING which might happen in the bus as a practise of WELCOMING all events as they are and just noticing the minds response. so here we are again. same crowded bus. hanging outside feeling the wind on my body. tensed arm from hanging there. inside a goat peed on my foot. i noticed the warms of pee, the smell....and welcomed it. then a basket with fruit tipped over and the fruit knocked me on my head.....the lady smiled at me i smiled back, a bit frustrated. suddenly the bus breaked hard and i got squeezed and again stepped on my toes, the pain was noticed without judgement and so it wasn't that bad as everybody nearly fell over and laughter started about this in a way funny situation.......when we arrived in kandy i was more sweaty then last time my toes were bleeding, but the attitude of WELCOMING all experiences as they are including emotional responses and nothing judged or resisted. kept the mind cool, receptive and at peace.

 Your honest and detailed sharing was quite useful. It just helps to notice changes in attitude in similar situations over a period of time and I am happy about meditation practice too. Acceptance and surrender are difficult but really let go of creating issues which cause unnecessary disturbance within ourselves.