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On Dec 17, 2012 Conrad P Pritscher wrote :
My suggestion is to take your time in making any decisions and to notice where your present anguish is coming from. I invite you to read many of the other pieces and comments at this site. You are to be congratulated for finding such an excellent site. The answer to your question is within you. Warm and kind regards, Conrad P.