Prayer, spiritual study, meditation – these are all things that bring me closer to G-d, closer to myself, give me clarity and the ability to discern best actions (or non-actions) for myself and my family. Then why do I fight it? Why, sometimes are those books the heaviest to pick up? Or those meetings or classes the most inconvenient to attend? Or to sit quietly and claim my necessary daily bread seem such a daunting task? As much as I love the mindfulness, strength and connection to my purpose and G-d that I feel afterward, why is it more natural for me to stay stuck in the murkiness and clutter of my own mind? This struggle drives me to sit. This ego battle pushes me to prayer. Sometimes willfully, sometimes gritting my teeth, it is my choice no matter what. Because I cannot afford to keep what is useless.
On Aug 24, 2009 Liz, ijourney Audio Editor wrote :
Prayer, spiritual study, meditation – these are all things that bring me closer to G-d, closer to myself, give me clarity and the ability to discern best actions (or non-actions) for myself and my family. Then why do I fight it? Why, sometimes are those books the heaviest to pick up? Or those meetings or classes the most inconvenient to attend? Or to sit quietly and claim my necessary daily bread seem such a daunting task? As much as I love the mindfulness, strength and connection to my purpose and G-d that I feel afterward, why is it more natural for me to stay stuck in the murkiness and clutter of my own mind? This struggle drives me to sit. This ego battle pushes me to prayer. Sometimes willfully, sometimes gritting my teeth, it is my choice no matter what. Because I cannot afford to keep what is useless.