I view myself as a gestalt, a configuration, composed of different parts and structures performing different activities and functions.Each one is different yet connected with each other creating a sense of me, my identity. There are times when I feel cohesiveness, a sense of integration, wholeness and oneness- my true identity.I feel deep joy, ecstasy. These are the times of thankfulness and gratefulness; times of bowing, surrendering and merging.
And there are times when I feel disconnected within myself. I feel pull and push between two forces not in tune with each other. These are the times when I feel alone and lonely though there is a world of people hustling and bustling around me. I feel a sense of alienation. I feel not at home. These are the times for me for deep contemplating and searching, meditating and praying. Sometimes such times are short and at times they are long. I do not push or myself from what is transpiring in my inner world. I mindfully stay present watching and witnessing my changing inner panorama. Slowly and steadily I come back home.
While I was writing my reflections, my 19 years grand daughter came to see me in my room and asked me what I was doing. I told her I am at that stage in my life when I spend quiet time with myself to listen to my inner voice in deep contemplation so that my times with others become more meaningful and full. She smiled and left.
May we all find some time to be with us for home coming and live our life as fully as we can!
On Nov 27, 2016 Jagdish P Dave wrote :
I view myself as a gestalt, a configuration, composed of different parts and structures performing different activities and functions.Each one is different yet connected with each other creating a sense of me, my identity. There are times when I feel cohesiveness, a sense of integration, wholeness and oneness- my true identity.I feel deep joy, ecstasy. These are the times of thankfulness and gratefulness; times of bowing, surrendering and merging.
And there are times when I feel disconnected within myself. I feel pull and push between two forces not in tune with each other. These are the times when I feel alone and lonely though there is a world of people hustling and bustling around me. I feel a sense of alienation. I feel not at home. These are the times for me for deep contemplating and searching, meditating and praying. Sometimes such times are short and at times they are long. I do not push or myself from what is transpiring in my inner world. I mindfully stay present watching and witnessing my changing inner panorama. Slowly and steadily I come back home.
While I was writing my reflections, my 19 years grand daughter came to see me in my room and asked me what I was doing. I told her I am at that stage in my life when I spend quiet time with myself to listen to my inner voice in deep contemplation so that my times with others become more meaningful and full. She smiled and left.
May we all find some time to be with us for home coming and live our life as fully as we can!
Namaste.
Jagdish P Dave