I used to hide my pain, my worries….basically, everything that could be looked at as weakness from everyone. I was raised to always have everything together, without help, without blessings, without prayers.
Now, it’s a process for me to ask for and actually receive help. Oddly enough, my heart and soul loves helping others…but, me getting help? Without crying afterwards?
I’ve never had a birthday party, anniversary party…rarely received gifts in my life, so when I do I actually pay people back. I do, and it hurts me to do it. I resent how I am. It feels awesome to release this today.
I always said as a mother I never wanted help from my kids, well…never wanted to “need” help. Well, I have had help, my son is like my guardian angel and my daughters are sent from heaven.
In closing, I’m abundantly blessed to be able to now at 36, be able to tell people I cry, to show my weaknesses, to be vulnerable and to ask for what I deserve unapologetically.
God reigns, I tell you! God reigns!
Amen!🙏
On Aug 12, 2024 L. Powell wrote :