Genjo Koan

One day I was sitting in my friend's office feeling bored, feeling I should be doing something. I asked why can I do? He looked up from his work. Put down his pencil. Looked at me. With a placid face, he said"do what you always do." What's that I asked? "Spread your light." I was confused. I got up and went walking around the temple. How do I spread my light, I wondered? My energy moved to my head as I pondered.people who came greeted me. I smiled. Yet I was still pondering. I was confused. I was out of my element. I felt heavy. After many hours, I returned to myself. Back to my element. Smiled inwardly and allowed myself the freedom to be....to allow my heart its freedom to open and to close...to let the judgment go and stop seeking... to come to the presence of the moment...to be.