Child of trauma/narcissism. Finally broke in 2015. In 2016, in the middle of outback Queensland, pulled over on the side of the road, just me and my dog. I suddenly realised "I am NOTHING". Lost ego, lost lust, lost desire for anything more than "what is". Filled with peace and acceptance and loving the freedom that allowed me to find it within me Back into society by 2018 and attracting abuse again, feeling lost again, worthless again.. anxiety, grief, rage, overwhelm, sadness. Aaaargh!! Just got to disconnect again to reconnect to myself. Simple as that.
On Sep 12, 2023 Toni wrote :