Forgiveness

'Letting go of the notions of blame and self-pity', as harsh as it might sound, I like how the author reminds us of this. For forgiveness to exist, there must be some mental weighing scale, one that I manage and control. To imply I forgive is to decide the scale is unbalanced, slightly tilted, lifting my existence higher than the other. But can this really be? An act alone may be dharmic or adharmic. But the doer and experiencer come from the same source. I tell myself, I am mistaken to think I am somewhat greater if I experience adharma and with this belief, I hold myself to never blame. But I do take self-pity on occasion, which is silly. Pity holds me to the past; it makes what happened continue to live on and impinge upon my current experience. How is that helpful? I want to live now. So why make room for the experience to live on? Why self-pity, I remind myself, ever so often. In the vedic/sanskrit culture, the word kshama is used to speak of the quality of forgiveness. I learned today that Kshama does not mean forgiveness. It simply means releasing oneself from the theoretical function of time.