This is an important reminder. From being very lost, I found meaning and became a goal-driven person (never extremely) but then having achieved my goals—to be a commercially successful composer—I realised there was a deeper musical reality that I could never reach by will or intellect, and so eventually I found the courage, with the aid of Sai Baba (to say nothing of the support of my wife), to leave that world; and enter the wilderness. For a good number of years I let myself be led by circumstance; but then, slowly, once again I found newer deeper meaning, and a musical language to express them. Since then I have been much clearer about soft goals. So I feel midway between both worlds; and it's a happy place. A lot of the time!
On Mar 10, 2023 Michael Maxwell Steer wrote :