Yes, it makes sense. You truly cannot run away. Trying to run away will only result in more suffering and confusion. I think we've all been there. It is so good that you face reality and accept it. It is what it is, sensations and experiences arise, stay a while, and then pass away. The sensations and experiences are not YOU. Big hug back to you, Kristin!
40-60 years, and accepting that you are not often in the now, and learning to be patient with your impatience.
To me, it seems that you are a master of humility and patience. thank you! :-)
Varsha, you can explore your inner self, the mind and the matter. this option is always open to you. don't be afraid of being still and silent, and observing. it is likely that you will want to run away when you are still. observe this feeling of wanting to run. be with it in stillness. consider trying a 10-day vipassana course, it has helped me very much.
When I'm waiting in a line, or any time I feel impatience arise, I use it as a signal to come back to my body. I feel and observe the sensations in my body, the aliveness, and I feel and observe my breath. When I do this the universe often opens up and I'm not waiting any more. I'm not anticipating the future. I become here. The energy changes enormously. It goes from a vibration of negativity (which everyone picks up) to a vibration of happiness and love (which everyone picks up).
On Dec 30, 2014 Peter wrote on Not Resisting Resistance, by Peter Russell:
This is a great re-mind-er. I also find it helpful to come back to breath and body sensation. This is like my bedrock. This way I can accept whatever is actually going on within my body and my mind. This helps break the habit of resistance, which when you think about it boils down to "wanting," wanting an experience or sensation to be like this and not like that, wanting someone to behave like this and not like that, etc. Don't want, just accept! Then you can look around, and see what it is that's truly calling out to be done...