You touch me deapley because i haven't children. My womb never give childbirth this make empty. Al so i feel disconnected with my grandparents because nobody gont happy for me in 1981 when i was born like baby girl. I feel disconnected with life religioun everything. I wish this could be deferent. I don't know how to connect with love.
I was brok my moral compas. That why i wish to cry with hi voice. Im not happy from my job because i was married from man who give me hepatit B exatley from this may be. That why i have disbalanse in my speret. I need harmony for me self.
Well i need to share something i was very scary 2020 when my brother was in jeyl in UK i was syrch him this was opresed me to make activism and to start to work with LGBGT activist becauase i was need help from them for my brother and money bud in my speret i was scary from them because im muslimah. Or i was. I hate me self because my hipocrisy and scary . people was frendley because this the are job. Bud i was scary insaight because my father 2018 was passed from rasism and miserable life exatley because im roma muslimah .
That why i was try to best to save my brother.
Som time i du things people to like me bud in my speret im anger to my self. Im tyerd from my hipocrisy. And scary from rasism i need harmony in my speret.
Shure when i lost my job and i was in hosoital som cristian noon. Ani Marinova come to me and she was speak me about seint Francisk i was practise muslimah in this time bud nobody visit me. We are talk for blue mousque rumi and Francisko.
From 2011 to 2021 i was work with my self i was reed quran in arabik bud dont understand the mesage.
The my fathrer passed and i kost my self hi was passed 2018 from 2021 may be i was start to tecover my speret whith mantra. Im not hindu bud my speret neau its more aksletifol this leson i stady from India to aksept evribody.
I steel cry when i leson quran because i remember my father how hi passed. Defentley speretual travel have lot of sad.
When i was reed quran for me this was medjtation. I havent right to say cause im beliver bud i can say cause surch the true in evrithink.
On Mar 28, 2023 Genoveva Dimcheva wrote on Interbeing, by Thich Nhat Hanh: